I believe that, as human beings, we all want to know if what we’re doing is okay.
Is what I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing? Is this okay?
We crave acceptance from people around us, and most importantly, our peers. As humans, it’s our natural instinct to be accepted by the people around us.
But that’s a problem.
Recently I’ve realized that I’m like this with a certain person. I admire this person a lot, and I relate to them more than anyone else I’ve ever known. I find myself constantly wanting to see that they feel the same way about me. If I get even a hint that they don’t like me, even for just a second, I find myself crushed. Basically my focus is on them accepting me.
I’ve began to wonder…why do I care so much that they like me? Why do I care so much for their acceptance? Why do I get so upset when they don’t like me?
It could be that I’m trying to please the people around me, but most specifically, this person. But I’ve come to realize that it’s tiring to try and gain acceptance or affection from anyone. It’s tiring to constantly be thinking, “Oh, do they hate me? I hope they don’t hate me.”
And then one day, it hit me. Why am I trying so hard to gain the affection of another human being? Out of all of the billions of people on this earth, even when I have God on my side, why am I trying so hard? Why am I letting it bother me and stress me out so much?
The only person I need to gain acceptance from is God. Actually, I don’t need to do anything to gain acceptance from Him, because He has loved me, even before I was born. He loves me and does more for me than any human being here on earth can do. And He can save me, and give me eternal life in His kingdom. And no human being can do that. No human being can save me, or love me unconditionally, or be faithful always, or work everything out for the best for me…not in the way that God can.
So for now, this is something I’m working on in my relationship with God. I’m trying less and less to gain the affection and acceptance from this certain person, because the only one I need to accept me is God, and it gives me great comfort knowing that He does. Nothing else matters.